When hurting so bad and crying waterfalls..why not just speak to my blog…type it out hopefully will make me feel a tad better..
Only 10 days ago I was chatting on the phone to Janine and we were talking about how great it will be to spend weekends together when hubby and I move back down to Victoria, we joked and laughed and chatted away like we always do-funny how we even touched on the fact that in the years we have known each other we have never had a cross word to say to each other or upset each other.We talked about how much her grandchildren were growing and about my new grandsons arrival.
THEN…
Janine a close & dear friend of 23 years suffered a
massive heart attack on Sunday, today the doctors told the family she was gone it was only the machines keeping her alive..how devastating for them..they all came to say their goodbyes ( me way to far away to do that ).
This poor family has been through hell..Janine lost her husband and the kids lost their dad when he was taken tragically , then a few years later one of their daughters passed away suddenly,leaving Janine and the remaining kids 2girls & 3boys to knit together a life without loved ones..Janine comes from a large family who are all very supportive and wonderful people to be around...Late last year Janines dear mum passed away….
I am so feeling so lost and feeling wrong for feeling lost, when I think of what the poor kids are going through the youngest of whom are twins aged 18.
Janine and I spent so much time together when the kids were young and we lived next door to each other..all them memories are flooding my mind right now. The times we laughed so hard our sides hurt, our many shopping adventures together…the many times we found comfort in each others company and bawled our eyes out..
Can’t stop crying, this is so unfair..oh that’s right there is no rhyme or reason as to why god takes the best..but I think he has his full truly..she was a happy healthy lady who suffered the odd bout of asthma..who is muchly loved by all her children and family by many many more people she has touched through the years.
My head is pounding away here and I do feel some bit better by typing this out..purely for my benefit – I learnt many years ago that writing down ones feelings in a time of stress/upset is great therapy..my arm does not allow me to pen too much now but typing takes a while but is less painful.
Not so Cheery Vickie
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